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"All the world's a stage"  boys- i dated the one that i last talk about for a year and 10 months. we moved in together about 7 months ago to the horror of my parents. his friends lived with us for the first two months in our one bedroom apartment, he insists that he asked me first, i dont recall ever saying yes, but that is all trivial now. the break up was really easy and neither of us offered trying to work things out. after we broke up i played with a guy from work. he is so attractive and funny and cute, and smells great haha. but he didnt want me. actually i just deleted his number from my phone two days ago so i stop drunk texting him. the last two times that i tried to contact him he completely ignored me, not answered and said he couldnt becuase he had other plans. just did not acknowledge that i spoke to him. i dont need that in my life anyway. school- changed my major for the fourth time. i am now a freshman all over again. i should be graduating in two semesters. but nope not anymore. i went from fashion design, to elementary education, to dietetics and nutrition now to interior design. i dotn want to talk about school anymore. it makes me sad. job- i worked at a box factory for a while. it was... consistent.i went in at the same time. did the same job next to the same people everyday. there were only two girls around my age, and even still they were 26 and i was 18. but i got one of them fired because i sent them in to take nakie pictures for me when we were all on the clock and the oldest, grumpiest lady working there caught them. one girl took all the blame and me and the other girl got to keep our job. hah now i am a waitress at panos restaurant. i love love love the people, i like the job and the pay is great. apartment- after ben and i broke up i went moved out of the apartment and got one of my own. it is a 2 bedroom. it is an attic apartment, so all the ceilings are cute and angled. however that affects some furniture decisions. i am lonely some of the time, but dont want a roommate. over all i like it. appearance. i got my lip ring a week ago. Current mood:  amused.
count down 27 days. already made it through a lapse of 21 days. i cant believe that it is not even halfway over. Current mood:  miss you.
lets see. the last time that i updated this was 97 weeks ago. (i didnt count, it told me) and i have to say, going back and rereading this i dont think i would have been my friend. "cry cry poor me" i was a bitch. i will fill in the 97 weeks so that in two more years when i re remember this site i will remember what happened in my life. significant others- the last thing i remember reading was that i was going out with sean. that lasted all of a week and i didn't even get the benefits of having a boyfriend that went to my school, like kisses in the hall way or walking each other to class. strangely enough i saw him tonight for the first time in a year. he told me i looked good in his hat. how strange. then there was brandon senior year. we started going out around spring breakish but we were over before senior prom. it was group dates and drunken kisses and that is all that relationship was really. i am pretty sure that in the entire dating process we were alone two times. we still went to prom as "friends" and by that i mean i was not allowed to come near him or touch him in any way. their power went out and i had a sucky date and i was grumpy. then i hooked up with a couple girls. i went on and off with an older guy for a while. that was a mistake. and that is all i have to say about that. i tried for this real cute girl. she did not like girls at all. but i kissed her twice. haha then i found the boy i love now. he deserves the whole story i think. we had a class together. BSC fucking crazy teacher. he lied all the time. we had to read like 8 books. but we only had two 10 page papers for a grade. he also didnt take attendance so there were only 7 people in class ever. but we all came every day. becca was in the class with me, so i really didnt feel the need to make friends. there was a cut boy though... ben. he facebooked first i imed first. he invited me to a party. then within that week he invited me to spend a week at his house over break... before we where going out. but we are now. it will be 6 months on the 17th. :) school- i graduated 4 people from the stage. i was pissed. then i went to buffstate. i dorm. i will have a suite next semester. and then next year i plan on getting an apartment with my boy. then for my senior year i think i am going to FIT. appearance- i chopped all my hair off. i dyed it dark. i have a tattoo. i want a lip ring. Current mood:  no friends to play with.
Current mood:  content.
The water soaks into rocks That fell at the bottom of the road." so much is changing. the things that i once believed in, i have a hard time excepting. the people i listened to, i fallowed, i trusted... turned. i wish that i could go back. talk them out of doing all of the garbage that they did. tell them that they will be hurting people down the road. Current mood:  restless.
i think i am getting more allergic to cats. i nearly died at mikes... it hurt to breath. then i got home did the inhaler thing, but now i am all shaky and dizzy, i have only used it 2 other times, and i dont remember if this is normal. it is kind of fun though. i want to talk to someone. but no one in their right mind is up at 1:30 in the morning. so i guess i will go to bed now. night all. Current mood:  weird.
it was so much fun. at first i was self-conscious, didn’t want to look ridiculous. then i was like... no one is going to come up to me and tell me that i do not dance well, and if they make fun of me behind my back, it happens anyway.. so i just did my own thing and i was happy. Andy is the best dancer i have ever meet. she is adorable, and makes me smile. and thank you Ben for our dace. still bummed that plans for after didn’t work out, but the night was a lot of fun to say the least. Current mood:  tired.
but i like to tell it, so i don’t want to type it, and make you hear it again later... so ask me... believe me it is worth your time. Current mood: amused.
which is my favorite little kids show ever... then my parents friends came over... and because i was watching that show the embarrassing things i did as a little kid were fresh in their minds... and of course they shared them. Thanks family. i love you too. Current mood:  stupid project..
it can go from best time to tears in 24 hours. i speak the truth.. i timed it. |
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